For the most part, people have been ridiculously supportive. I’ve had strangers on Instagram contact me and send me support and well wishes, I’ve had friends go out of their way to research the VSG and organise to see me while I’m in hospital. And then I’ve had the people who pretend to be supportive and wish me luck, but their attitudes and actions scream something else.
I don’t know who some of my friends will be after this whole thing, and that really makes me feel like crap. I don’t know who will congratulate me on any success I have, or who will ignore it because they think I don’t deserve it. Some people, who I considered to be my closest friends, haven’t even bothered to even ask me how my VLCD has been going, or how I’m feeling being so close to my surgery; and when I try and contact them, I get barely anything in response. Those same people haven’t even tried to organise coming to visit me while I’m in hospital. It absolutely sucks, but it was definitely expected.
Friends who are a part of the body positive community are the ones who I feel have been the least receptive to my decision. I feel like they think I should be happy with who I am, and that I don’t need to change. And while I appreciate where they are coming from, I keep trying to emphasise I am not doing this for vanity reasons. I am doing it because I want a fulfilled life where I’m no longer held back because of my weight weight. I want to travel and to keep up with my partner, I want the possibility of kids in my future and I don’t want to develop any health problems. It took me a long time to love the body I have, and wanting to better myself doesn’t mean I love it any less.
Now, I don’t mean for this entire post to be negative. I do have some amazing friends who have been brilliant with all of this, and my boyfriend has been perfect about it all, plus my family (especially my mum and sister) have been incredible. I am so blessed to have them in my life, and I honestly don’t know if I tell them all enough.
I am 8.3kg down and my VSG is in 4 days. I am so ridiculously close to my 10kg pre-op goal, so fingers and toes crossed that extra 1.7kg drops in the next few days! Also, if you’ve gotten this far through my little spiel, I commend you.
One more thing: Should I start vlogging? I really want to film my experience pre and post-op. Let me know in the comments!
I appreciate you all so much!