So, I know a lot of you have been wondering when I was going to update this blog; and for a few weeks, I thought about deleting it altogether.
I didn’t want to talk about my surgery, I didn’t want to think about what I had done. My days in hospital were dreadful, I barely slept, I was having reactions to medications and I was so thirsty I wanted to cry. The first thing I said to my mum when I saw her was “I don’t want this, take it back”; which I think indicates how much pain I was in. I went into the hospital hearing how easy it was, how people were on their feet the next day; but I was not those people. Something as simple as drinking water was a lot more difficult than I imagined, and the hunger I experienced was absolutely ridiculous. My surgeon told me it was head hunger, but it definitely didn’t feel that way. And being told by others that they felt absolutely no hunger post-op, and that they had to remind themselves to eat or drink. But I was constantly watching the clock until I could have that tiny cup of water or juice, and it was so mentally draining.
But all of that unpleasantness is behind me now, I’m finally starting to feel positive about the decision I’ve made. I’ve been on soft food for almost a week now, and I’m eating about 1/4 to 1/2 of a cup of food every 3 or so hours. I can start going out and eating with friends now, and soon I can begin enjoying an alcoholic beverage or two as well. I’m basically starting to feel human again. Eating with friends is actually a little funny, when they see how much I’ve eaten and I tell them that I’m full! Another added bonus, is eating out is so much cheaper too; kids meals and singular sushi plates save the day.
I’m officially 5 weeks post-op today, and I’ve lost 19.1kg since starting OptiFast on the 18th of July. I know the weight loss is incredible, and exciting; but that doesn’t mean I would suggest people jumping into this surgery for that reason alone. I’m going to reiterate that I’ve tried to lose weight and keep it off for years, but it always came back, with a vengeance. I went into this surgery as my last resort. My stomach can stretch, and I can regain weight if I make the wrong choices and abuse this tool I’ve been given. This is a complete life altering surgery, nothing will ever be the same again. So just think about that when considering your options 🙂
And in case people wanted a little update on how my body is changing with the weightloss, I took these photos on the 5th of September, and I’ve lost another 1.2kg in the 11 days between then and now.
I’ve also been compiling questions from you guys to make a YouTube video to answer them all. So if you have any questions you would like me to answer, comment them below!